What happens when you need and want to tell the truth about things you can’t quite remember? These blog posts document my many attempts to remember and to tell the truth.

No Escape: Confronting the Past and Finding Strength

I was on sabbatical in Pacific Grove, California, one year ago today. Aspen and I spent the day at Pebble Beach, visiting the iconic Lone Cypress, often regarded as the most photographed tree in the world. The Lone Cypress stands as a powerful symbol of resilience and perseverance, thriving despite the harsh elements of its environment and enduring even through efforts to remove it from its precarious position.

Earlier today, I found myself sitting in my therapist’s office.

I think many of us share the misconception that the ideal way to live is by avoiding pain and seeking comfort above all else.

For much of my life, I held onto this belief myself.

Looking back, I realize I’ve lived a bold, adventurous life that […]

The Beatles’ Historic First Concert in Seattle: A Night to Remember

The Beatles played their first Seattle concert on August 21, 1964, with more than 14,000 excited fans packing the old Seattle Center Coliseum. Despite the electric atmosphere, the cheers were so loud that most of us couldn’t hear the music. I was there among the crowd, thanks to my Aunt Dorothy, who surprised my friend Jeannie and me with tickets for my birthday while I was visiting her in Washington that summer. The noise was intense. This concert was only the third stop on The Beatles’ inaugural U.S. tour and the first event ever held at the venue, originally built for the World’s Fair. The crowd’s volume was overwhelming. It made no difference to fans like me, who was only […]

A Great Sadness: Navigating Grief and Healing

Everyone assured me that my grief would ease after a year, but it only intensified.

I couldn’t help but wonder—was there something wrong with me?

On January 5, 2022, profound sorrow and a great sadness enveloped my life, leaving me silent for a long time. I withdrew from social interactions, rarely seeing anyone except during brief encounters at the local grocery store or on an occasional walk with Aspen. When I did cross paths with someone, a polite hug might be exchanged, but words were scarce. Being around others was challenging for me. I feared that any conversation might rip open the fragile scab over my wounded heart.

We all experience the loss of loved ones throughout our lives. For most, time eventually […]

Relinquish: The Power of Letting Go and Moving Forward

For me, wisdom lies less in gaining more knowledge and more in relinquishing the belief that we hold any absolute truths.

On my first night in Peru, before beginning our three-week adventure with the next day’s descent to Machu Picchu, Titi asked me to share my life story.

The simple question, ‘What’s your life story?’ seems straightforward.

So why did it leave me stumbling and at a loss for words? After all, I love stories and even write them myself. So why was it so difficult to share my own? I find it easy to be curious about others; however, it’s much harder to open up and be vulnerable about myself.

I’m hesitant to share my story with Titi. For many years, I believed […]

How Old Is Too Old? Challenging Age Limits and Expectations

Reflecting on the future as I start year 72.

As I celebrated the completion of 71 years yesterday, I viewed the world with new eyes. It wasn’t a naive optimism but a clear realization that I have reached an advanced age. This awareness has brought about unexpected changes in me, particularly as I ponder what lies ahead.

For decades, my guiding principle has been, “You are never too old to become who you want to be.”

I’ve successfully reinvented myself every decade, embracing each new chapter of my life. But now, I find myself wondering—what will my 70s bring?

Here’s a brief overview of the various stages of my life. At age thirty-three, I became a mom and dropped out of school. I started […]

Simplicity Is the Key: How Less Can Lead to More

Since the start of this year, I’ve embarked on a journey of simplification.

While I’ve never been one for materialism, I realized I still had more than I needed.

Now, my kitchen is equipped only with the essentials I use regularly, and I’ve donated 70 books to the local library.

I have three pairs of walking shoes, each suited for different terrains and weather, and just enough pens for my writing needs. I’ve also shared my extra supplies with a local preschool.

I’m genuinely enjoying the simplicity of life, and I find nothing is missing.

Letting go of things I no longer need has been one of my best decisions. I don’t feel like I’ve “sacrificed” a life of “luxury.” Instead, I’ve traded material possessions […]

Who Wouldn’t Be Skeptical? Questioning What We Believe

When I was three, my mother introduced me to the concept that I had a unique gift as an intuitive empath, capable of sensing and perceiving souls.

This realization marked the start of my journey as an intuitive, a path that has been met with skepticism by many.

Only a select few have stayed close to me for a long time throughout my life. I deeply cherish conversations that bring profound joy, a few laughs, and sometimes even a tear or two. As I grow older, fewer people are interested in spending time with me.

My adoptive parents named me Doretta Ellen Cascinai, but since I was 13, I’ve gone by Dore—a nickname given to me by my Aunt Connie. However, the rest […]

Life Is a Piece of Chocolate Buttercream Cake: Savor Every Moment

Countless times, people have heard parts of my story and asked if I would change anything about my life.

My response is always the same: ‘Not a chance! I’m more content and happier than I ever imagined I could be.'”

Someone once asked me, “Wouldn’t you want that house with the white picket fence, more money, or that animal sanctuary you’ve always dreamed of? Surely there’s something you’d change, right?”

My response was simple: “No.”

I’m already happy, and who knows how much more money might change my life?

Here’s how I see it: if life were a chocolate buttercream cake recipe that I’m striving to perfect, I’ve finally nailed the balance—just the right amount of salt, baking soda, cocoa powder, flour, sugar, and all […]

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