What happens when you need and want to tell the truth about things you can’t quite remember? These blog posts document my many attempts to remember and to tell the truth.

Whispers To The Soul – Letting Go to Move Forward: A Life Lesson from Pink Paint – Series

It was one of those still, hot August mornings when the air feels heavy with possibility. I woke with a quiet determination to transform the tiny powder room just off the kitchen.

Aspen trotted at my side, her paws keeping rhythm with my steps, as we set out into the soft hush of the early morning toward Home Depot.

We gathered a gallon of soft pink paint, two smooth wooden mixing sticks, a crinkling sheet of plastic to guard the floor, a handful of fresh brushes, a sturdy roller with its long extension, and a clean, empty pan—simple tools in my hands, yet carrying the quiet promise of transformation, something far more profound than a mere coat of paint.

I stirred the paint […]

Beneath My Silence – Rise Through Life’s Tests by Letting Go with Grace – Series

The one who can let go with grace is the one who rises through every test of life.

Spiritual Insight:
When we learn to understand the deeper meaning behind life’s events and move through them with grace, we gain the strength to face all circumstances with stability. Instead of being weighed down by challenges, we remain aware of our inner resources and use each situation as a stepping stone.

Inner Experience:
Because I choose to move through difficulties with a light heart and a steady spirit, I pass life’s tests with peace and contentment. I am not trapped by temporary obstacles but uplifted by them. Each situation becomes […]

The Girl Left Behind – The Day I Lost My Mother: Searching for the Memory I Never Kept – Series

Many have asked me about the day I lost my mother, the day my mother passed, but the questions that echo in my heart are not for them. They’re for my family, the neighbors, and the ones who stood closest to the truth that day.

What truly happened to her soul in those final moments?

Why did her journey end so suddenly?

What unseen forces were at play?

I long to understand—not just how she died, but why, and what deeper meaning may lie beneath the silence that followed. The very questions I now carry were first spoken by her sisters, her father, and her mother in the wake […]

Between Two Worlds: A Spiritual Awakening in Fifth Grade

I was in fifth grade when a quiet awareness settled in that I was between two worlds – I hadn’t been living in what most would call the “real world.”

The moment unfolded on a sunlit playground in Los Altos, California, as curious eyes studied me with a mix of wonder and confusion.

It became clear: I was different.

One of the so-called hippie kids—born in San Francisco, raised on intuition, and open skies.

My hair was long, my stepmother walked her path with sacred herbs, and I came into this life with an empath’s gift—feeling deeply, seeing between the lines, sensing what others missed.

That day, I didn’t feel out of place—I felt awakened.

A soul realizing a different rhythm had shaped it, […]

The Sacred Rhythm of Time

The sacred rhythm of time is one of life’s greatest gifts. The way you choose to spend your days has a profound impact on your vitality and inner peace.

Time offers countless chances to grow, heal, and evolve—but it’s up to you to embrace them.

Instead of fearing time or letting it slip by unnoticed, step into its rhythm. Mindfulness helps you reclaim your days and make empowered choices that nourish your spirit.

Beneath My Silence – When You Feel Like No One’s First Choice – Series

Do you ever catch yourself thinking that you are no one’s first choice –

not the favorite, not the one someone reaches for first –

just quietly present, lingering in the background?

And in that moment, you feel the pull to retreat –

not out of anger, but out of a quiet ache, a longing to be alone where it feels safer than feeling invisible.

Beneath My Silence – The Hardest Lesson of Adulthood: Moving Forward While Broken – Series

The most brutal lesson adulthood has taught me is the relentless demand to keep going – even when I feel shattered inside. It doesn’t matter if I am grieving, exhausted, or barely holding on. Life doesn’t pause for sorrow or fatigue.

It charges ahead, unmoved by heartaches.

And so, I follow –

because I have to.

Even when everything in me begs for stillness. What’s even harder, though, is realizing how unprepared we are for this truth. We grow up believing in the promise of happy endings, only to find that survival often means putting on a brave face when we are anything but okay. And maybe that’s the hardest part:

not just surviving, but doing it silently –

carrying the weight with no visible cracks. […]

The Girl Left Behind – There Is No Substitute For A Mother’s Love – Series

There is no substitute for a mother’s love, and I have learned to set aside the ache of longing and the weight of what was lost to offer the kind of emotional connection I was never given.

This journey requires deep work, patience, time, and the unraveling of decades-old patterns and beliefs.

It means unlearning how I coped in the absence of love and re-learning how to be present, how to live, and trust again, even when it feels vulnerable.

There is no substitute for a mother’s love. I still can’t fully grasp the extent of its absence, but I’ve witnessed its imprint in every corner of my life.

Her loss has shaped my […]

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