What happens when you need and want to tell the truth about things you can’t quite remember? These blog posts document my many attempts to remember and to tell the truth.

Notes From George – Resilience, and the Quiet Wisdom of Optimism – Series

George learned resilience early.

Between the ages of six and eighteen, he lived through sustained psychological and physical harm. There were times I truly feared for our lives.

No one intervened—our alcoholic stepmother continued unchecked, and our father did not step in.

Against that backdrop, George’s later struggles with drinking, reckless choices, and incarceration are sadly understandable. The circumstances we came from were overwhelming.

Still, George refused to surrender optimism.

As children, we endured acts of cruelty that remain difficult to put into words. Once, our stepmother sprayed oven cleaner directly into George’s eye. I locked us in the laundry room and rinsed it as best I could with a wet cloth. He […]

The Girl Left Behind – What I Was Told—and What I Found – Series

The Truth That Refused to Stay Buried

A personal investigation into a mother’s death—and the unanswered questions that remain

Some truths arrive quietly, and others that fracture a life. This story is about the latter. What follows is not speculation for its own sake, nor a sensational retelling.

It is the lived experience of a daughter who was told one story for twelve years—and then discovered another.

It is an account shaped by memory, documentation, absence, and the ache of what cannot be reconciled.


The Continued Story of A Girl Left Behind

Had my mother died in an accident, I believe I would have […]

40 Days After Death: Grief, Rituals, and Finding Meaning Across Faiths

Someone I loved died on November 15, 2025, and since then, life has shifted in ways both visible and unseen.

The quiet carries a different tone now. Everything feels heavier, slower, more deliberate.

Across cultures and faith traditions, there is a long-held recognition of the significance of the days that follow a death.

The forty days, in particular, are understood as a tender span of time—one that holds both grief and healing.

It is often seen as a sacred threshold between holding on and learning how to move forward, a place where ancient wisdom meets the raw immediacy of loss.

When words fail, the forty-day observance offers something else entirely: presence.

A […]

A Reflection on Aspen, My Beloved Dog and Soul Companion

Aspen has become a gentle teacher in my life, offering daily reminders of what unconditional love truly means.

Her presence brings a sense of calm and healing that I deeply cherish.

From the moment I held her at just four weeks old, I knew she had come into my life with purpose. Aspen February 2019

I have always carried a deep sensitivity toward animals—an intuitive empathy that allows me to understand and attune to their needs.

This connection guides me to care for them, to listen to them, and to protect the natural places they depend on.

Aspen is more than a dog to me—she is […]

Whispers To The Soul – The Weight I Learned to Carry – Series

I carry a sadness that does not belong to just one moment or reason. It has no single source. It is a sadness that slowly closes me off, separating me from myself and from others, one quiet inch at a time. It is as though I feel the world in its rawest form, every small tremor of emotion around me. This sadness has lived with me for as long as I can remember. Choosing sadness became something I learned early—less a choice than a survival strategy that once made sense.

Some children are taught, quietly and early, to absorb the sadness around them. After my mother died when I was nine, I was moved into a household […]

Don’t Believe Everything You Think: Finding Peace in Uncertainty

When I was little, my family shared all sorts of stories about my parents. I don’t remember most of them, so I can’t really say if they were true.

And if people sometimes stretch the truth — and we all do — how can I ever know what really happened?

Even with all the unanswered questions, I’ve found peace in letting go of the need for certainty.

It’s not indifference; it’s acceptance.

Some parts of life aren’t meant to be explained, and I’m at ease with that truth.

“Don’t believe everything you think.”

Simple words, yet profoundly true.

Our minds borrow voices from the world — from people, headlines, fears, and […]

The Girl Left Behind – Why I Chose to Tell This Story – Series

This writing — for now a blog, perhaps later a book — is an act of remembering.

It draws me back through vivid scenes of the past, calling for honesty, courage, and collaboration with those who shared the journey.

This story is different in two important ways.

First, the memories I revisit — particularly those surrounding my mother’s death — come from the perspective of a grieving child, and they are deeply painful to tell.

Second, some of what I reveal about sexual abuse and trafficking will challenge the reputations of individuals once considered beyond reproach. My father’s threats kept our family silent for years. He warned my aunts, my grandfather, and eventually me to say nothing, even […]

Winter Cleaning: Creating Space for Stillness, Renewal, and Inner Peace

A home is more than walls and windows; it’s the space that holds us steady through life’s changing tides. When we keep it cared for—clean, uncluttered, and tended—it becomes a true refuge, a place where calm can take root even when the world feels uncertain.

Most people do their big cleaning in the spring, opening windows and starting fresh after winter. For me, it’s different. I’ve always been drawn to winter cleaning—that quiet time after the last leaves have fallen and the first snow is near.

There’s something comforting about preparing my space for the stillness ahead. I open the windows to let in the cold, clean air. I sweep and vacuum, clear the […]

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