What happens when you need and want to tell the truth about things you can’t quite remember? These blog posts document my many attempts to remember and to tell the truth.

Notes From George – Don’t Forget to Love – Series

From the time he was eight, George used to tell me he was certain everyone else knew a secret he didn’t.

He couldn’t explain what it was—only that something in his life felt missing, and that emptiness ached.

Our mother had been gone two years, and we’d been passed from one relative to another, so I assumed he missed her. But there was always something deeper in George’s restlessness—a quiet awareness that he didn’t quite belong.

That sense of being out of step with the world became, for him, a lifelong search for meaning.

He would sometimes ask if he was an “accident,” if he hadn’t really been meant to be part of our […]

Anchored in Faith, Guided by Love: Finding Peace in the Mystery

In this deeply personal reflection anchored in faith, I explore the nature of truth, faith, and the ego’s desire for certainty. Through surrendering the need to know and embracing life’s mysteries, I uncover a profound peace rooted in authenticity and spiritual trust.

It’s a gentle reminder that faith isn’t about having all the answers—it’s about walking forward with love, courage, and acceptance of the unknown.

I’m not a skeptic, and I don’t think the world is full of lies.

I believe it’s full of truth—often hidden in plain sight, waiting for us to notice.

We chase explanations, build theories, and weave stories to make sense of what defies understanding.

Our fear of uncertainty […]

Trusting the Flow: Surrendering to Divine Timing and Life’s Natural Rhythm

There is a quiet current guiding my life, one that I am learning to trust more deeply. As I surrender to its rhythm, it carries me toward the people, places, and experiences meant for my growth. When I stay aligned with this flow, everything unfolds in divine timing. At times, the pace of the universe does not mirror the urgency of my ego. When my plans stall, I am learning to rest in trust.

Every time I’ve tried to push or hurry what was still ripening, life has reminded me — the bloom unfolds when it’s ready. There was a time when anxiety became my saboteur — when striving too hard led me to exhaustion and illness.

Whispers To The Soul – When the Soul Whispers No – Series

I smile, yes, while my soul whispers no.

When the soul whispers no. 

There have been many times I said yes when I needed to have said no—too worried about what others might think, too afraid of seeming selfish.

When I was seventeen, I got married. Not because I was ready, but because I wanted to escape the chaos at home. My father offered an alternative path—a car, an apartment, and the opportunity to study veterinary medicine in college.

But back then, I couldn’t imagine choosing myself. So I said yes to a life that wasn’t mine, and in doing so, I hurt someone who had loved me deeply.

Adoption Secrets Uncovered: A 50-Year Search for Truth

Adoption secrets. What came next was far from what I had imagined.

When it comes to adoptees searching for their birth parents, there doesn’t seem to be much in between.

You either feel pulled toward the truth, or you don’t. For me, that pull has always been strong.

In California, where I was born, no system exists to help adoptees or birth parents reconnect. For fifty years, I’ve pursued every lead, no matter how faint. And now, at the point where my adoption, George’s adoption, my mother’s death, and the Cascinai family history converge, the story twists into turns I could never have imagined. My investigation has drawn on a wide range of sources: correspondence from my aunt Dorothy and my father, records […]

Notes From George – Remembering George – Series

George and I always shared a deep love for the water. For me, that meant living along the coastline for fifty years and now settling near two quiet lakes.

For George, it meant the vast ocean of Port Alexander, Alaska—an untamed place where the tides, currents, and winds of Southeast Alaska ruled daily life.

We both grew up in a family where love and respect weren’t evenly distributed, and yes, there were times when we felt alone and even frightened. So, George and I created our own joy—we threw little parties, dreamed of mansions, and clung to each other’s company.

I adored George and admired his simple, steady energy. He never graduated from high school, […]

The Girl Left Behind – Haunted by a Mother’s Death – Series

On the evening of October 14, 1962, George and I were just kids on vacation, free from rules and bedtimes.

We laughed with Aunt Connie and Uncle Chuck while cousin Mike popped us bowls of popcorn, the buttery smell filling the kitchen. Later, we clanged away at the pinball machine in the garage, its flashing lights making us feel like the night could go on forever.

When we finally grew tired, we hugged and kissed Aunt Connie and Uncle Chuck goodnight, wrapped in their warmth, before curling up in our beds, safe and happy.

The house grew quiet. We drifted into sleep without a care in the world. But then, somewhere in the darkest hours, […]

Beneath My Silence – A Salute to the Strong Woman Who Never Surrendered – Series

A Salute to the Strong Woman Who Never Surrendered.

To the steadfast woman. She became the anchor of a ship adrift, bracing against storms that sought to break her. Her sails strained against relentless winds, yet she stood unshaken ~

fearless, unyielding. Choice was rarely hers to claim, yet she chose to rise and fight, never surrendering.

Within her, fragments of happiness and sparks of hope flickered, dimmed but never extinguished ~

shadowed by the raw honesty she bore while peace remained out of reach. She carried every role with grace, yet the world overlooked her right to rest, her right to breathe freely.

In silence, she bore the weight of fear and […]

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